Mixed Feelings: Youtube

Have you ever wanted something so bad, then you get it, and you’re like ummm I don’t know about this. These are my exact feelings about our new YouTube channel. If you haven’t subscribed already, click here.

YouTube is something that I’ve been considering for a long time. However, I could never convince my hubby to get on board with it. He loves his privacy and isn’t really into the whole social media thing blah blah. I would literally beg for weeks and then drop the idea when I got tired of trying to convince him. Yet, I still couldn’t shake the fact that randoms would just start talking to us about how we should start a YouTube and boom here goes the baby plleeaasssee 🏽 again. Finally after years of begging, he gave in and said YES! I felt like a child at a candy store. We filmed our first video the next day.

Although my hubby and I have never watched YouTube couple vlogs before, we both agreed that this social media platform could be very helpful in building our future businesses. After posting our first video I was super nervous, but excited to see the feedback we would get from our family and friends. As always, I was so happy to see that everyone enjoyed our content and was excited that we finally decided to take a leap into this YouTube journey. What I wasn’t expecting was the commentary from those whom we do not know personally. For example: “Wow, I would have never thought that was her personality” “I wasn’t expecting that from them” “Omg, I thought they was bougie”🤦🏽‍♀️ No, these comments weren’t negative, but they made me realize that my life, my personality, and my privacy is now open for everyone to view. That’s deep. Those that know me, know me and those who don’t, don’t. I do not have the best reputation when it comes to being open with new people. I’m kind of shy in a way, but most definitely would consider myself an introvert.

I know I have a blog and I talk about my personal experiences on here, but it’s different when you can actually put a face, personality, and voice with those written words. Do y’all understand me? I’m watching myself be myself on the internet and everyone is shocked that I’m myself. Apart of me feels like maybe I like that everyone made their own opinions about me in their head, because in the end, it’s an opinion, it wasn’t factual, clearly. Now I’m giving everyone the opportunity to be apart of my world, and that’s scary to me. Now I have 150 questions starting to pour in my head. Wow Key, did you not think about what this channel could possibly bring? Did you think your family and friends would just watch it? Did you really think this out? Didn’t your husband tell you all of this and you didn’t listen? Are you ready for that lifestyle? I honestly don’t know. I love my privacy, but I also love the advantages YouTube could bring to my future endeavors. Whew, this is tew much thinking for me.

I know that social media is a choice and at the end of the day, it’s just social media. We can’t and won’t be anyone else but ourselves. I personally believe this new journey is for us although I am nervous about it, we are going to continue to push forward and let whatever happen, happen. We are so excited to share our authentic real love with those who are interested in watching. I’m excited to see what opportunity’s this may bring and I’m always thankful for those that support us no matter what. As always keep us in your prayers.️